Friday, January 01, 2010

gosh. im reading everyone's resolutions and i feel so. retarded. Haaah.

First day of 2010 huh. why does the number seem so exceedingly huge? the more i look at it, the scarier it gets. Hmmm. I dont know what to think of anymore. Its funny bacause there's so much to say of 2009. see! the number is less scary. haha. okay, im exaggerating.

Ohh. let me remind myself that i spent celebrating the new year in the toilet. yes i know, stuupid. well thats because we got home super late from msia and apparently my hopes and dreams of making it back in time for countdown was crushed. Minus the fact that i was the only one who was in happyhappy mood for new year, i still had to bathe before anything else. oh you know me right. hehh. so there i was half bathing and half texting. dont ask me how but there are ways to reply msgs when you have to. bathroom terms. hahaha. is it mandatory to return 'happy new year' messages? i dont think so. but if you have the least bit of consideration for the people who bother to send really long wishes then yes, you have to. oh come on. i bet everyone was getting highly annoyed with the lagging connection. dont resent that.

Reflection time.

2009. its ineffable how i wanna put this. i guess im just incredibly happy with whatever that has happened. be it good or bad. eveything has its fair share of experience right? i had my share. it was good. i enjoyed it. no matter how, i think manifest happiness has no comparison to how i've changed this year. as a person. daughter.friend.student.human. yes, we're all human and we change. its the nature of life. forgive me if im wrong but this is how i see it. what i can say now is. i've become a better person. in the ways that i wanted myself to be. no one can tell me how much i suck no matter how true it is. i define myself. i have the right to be who i am. for that, i thank you. all of you who has helped me become a better person. And im not just saying this.

So now we come to the part where i have to list my resolutions.

Think of Olevels as an Arashi concert in heaven.
Study like the ultimate nerd i was in primary 6.
Increase my belief in time management.
Talk less. ( i dont think its possible though)
Drink water like its the last thing left on this planet. (dehydration!)
Refrain from littering so indiscreetly in public. (school included)
Spend more time in the library. (books are my solitude)
Swallow my paroxysms of random laughter. (its a major distraction)
Pay more attention to my younger sister. (she needs me)
Make the most of the 4 months i have left in band. (seriously)
Be truly truly happy. (hopefully)
Power up my english to the maximum. (to infinity and beyonnd)
Improve my french. (avec espoir)
Love my family. ( they are the best living things you know)
Stick to my resolutions.

YES! i did it. i have resolutions. its an achievement. hahaha. well obviously, what is paramount is that i want to stay true to myself. lets make good change :D

dozing off at 2:09 PM